She. Where oh where to begin? She's so pretty. So young. So innocent. Doesn't even realize how the hypocrisy which placed her into her incognito effects my heart. The tyrrany wasn't meant for her... but.. it just came up without trying. I guess it was my love trying to keep me from getting hurt again. I told her I was smart. I told her some of my illusions, my dreams, my thoughts, my. heart. Did she understand? Did she care? Did the egotistic Lucifer entrap her without her knowledge? Is that why she's so head strong against me? or. Is she just trying to be the best she can for me? The thoughts which came to me I alawys thought to be insanity. But. Its all I Knew. All I had. All I could work with. I started to learn about humanity. About people. About there minds. And most importanly. About her. I could always come up with my own ideas on why things happened. But. I alawys thought it to be insanity...but.. why? WHY do these things keep coming true?!??!?! Its like a dream in a way. Never ending. ESP and the such, are nothing more then folk tales for all I know. why? WHY is this happening to me? fear that that I'll let it all get ahold of me again? Afraid to hurt her? Just..like. no.. that was the past. This isnt happening again. But..but..so many similarities. I know her already. Its like, everything about her was already within me. I already knew it all. I just, didn't know how to look at it. Maybe I ignored it all. Not this time. Nothing will change this. This is.. different. I can fix it before it ever happens this time. GOD THESE THOUGHTS. Who ever was it that said insanity is just the first step to brilliantness? Then, there's always Manson's "No Sense MAKES Sense" it all seemed so true. Its all. reality. Maybe. Im there. And .. and I just don't know it yet. .. my love. Im sorry.