I watch a woman cry
fist jammed in mouth
strangling sounds
jumping at every ominous ring
raped by a voice who knows her name
"Black Bitch"

I want to feel your warm blood on my hands
and it scares me

I see a woman terrified
eyes straight ahead
walking quickly with every pounding heartbeat
pretending a car is not following her
not listen to the voices
asking her if she is good in bed

I break a glass
pretending it is you
I can almost see your arm
lying mangled in the shards
and it scares me

I feel a woman trembling
when an invsible hand carves KKK on her door
she is not paying to be called
niggerspickchinkbitch

I want to drop my pen
for a gun
with bullets that can tear you apart
and it scares me

I am your creation
born of your loins
you push me
so far
so hard
that I fall out of Dr. King's dream
and into a nightmare

I am a recoil spring
bouncing back to
scratch your eyes
carve your skin
pound, mutilate, mangle
until you are a pulpy heap

I pick up your heart
still bloody, puslating
and eat it for breakfast
so good
and it scares me